I don't consider myself

 

I stray from identifying with titles other than that of my faith. I do it quite often when asked to talk about myself. When I was trying to draft a CV for the first time, I had to get a friend to help me figure out what my credentials are. It's not to say that I do not appreciate my accolades and what I am currently doing. I have just never seen the necessity of introducing myself as a blogger. 

When it comes to the subject of humility, it's a bit tricky for me to figure out how to toe the line. How exactly does one live a humble life in a healthy manner? There's a quote that says, ''Don’t think less of yourself, just think of yourself less.''. This helps me frame things in my mind. It's not tearing myself down, rather it's not puffing myself up. 


An illustration I remember coming across, tackles the matter in this way. Let's say you are at a gathering and there happens to be need for a guitarist. Hypothetically, let's go along with the fact that you are a well versed instrumentalist with the guitar. A companion of yours vouches for you and says that you play quite well. It will not be an act of humility if you waffle and say, '' Oh I am not really that good but I can play.''. That would be severely under valuing the work that you have put into getting to the skill level that you are at. 

I am a culprit of it as well. I am very euphemistic when describing my own abilities. I have figured it comes from my own perception of myself. I view myself to be extremely normal. I just feel like anything I can do anyone else can do, given enough time and practice. This leads to me to not really being aware of the value of my contributions when working with others. 


The best model I can answer about the question of humility is what I found in the Pauline letter to Philippi. It is to think of others more. In all the things I do whether or not I think I am good at it. What I need to think of more is who I am doing it for. So earlier when you were asked to play the guitar, you would just have to take it and see what kind of music the crowd liked. 

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